"I was eight years old when I started to get into
writing,” recalls Pilar, who grew up working alongside her mother, cleaning
properties in some of Brazil's wealthiest neighbourhoods.
“I read Ali Baba and the 40 Thieves and decided to write a
story. My mother's boss came into my room, saw my papers on the floor and said
that I was writing too much.
"She tore everything up, said 'get to work, blackie,
you're aiming too high'. This phrase has haunted me all my life. Today, every
time I take part in a literary project, a recital, I remember this. It was complete nonsense."
As Pilar landed her first paid cleaning job at 14, education
was never an option for her. It wasn't until she enrolled in a basic education
course for deprived adults that she got some college experience, but finding
secure employment remained a battle. Money was always running out and she was
eventually evicted from her home.
One day, after leaving yet another unsuccessful job
interview, Pilar broke down in the doorway of the Museum of Art of São Paulo
and cried. Suddenly, she spotted a man with a bundle of magazines under his
arm.
"I saw him selling magazines so I went over and asked
him how I could get a job like that," recalls the 44-year-old. "He told me about the street paper and I
said to him, 'but I don't live on the streets'. He replied: 'But soon you
will'. And he was right. I no longer had any money in my purse and I hadn't
even realised it."
Together they went to the Ocas office, where Pilar received
her orange vest and a pack of ten magazines. It was a Monday morning. On Wednesday
she went back for more.
"There were periods where I didn't stop working until
one in the morning,” says Pilar
“I had to make the most of the people coming out of the
cinema and theatre. Selling the magazine, I meet artists, actors, singers and
lots of very nice people. I show them my poems. They often give me free tickets
for shows, invitations to plays. All of this keeps me going."
Writing has remained her greatest passion. Following the publication
of her poems in Ocas, she published a book, Unacademic Words. "I didn't go
to university, but living on the streets inspired me to write it," she
says.
After eight years of selling Ocas, Pilar managed to rent the
house that she lives in today, with her children. "Ocas has turned my life
around," she says. "We have money to eat and pay the bills, which is the most important
thing. I hope that one day I can buy my own place."
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